Just split up with my fella and when I go back to leeds i know he's going to be around. I really don't want to see him but I don't think I'll be able to avoid him. Haven't seen/spoken to him for over 2 months so I'm already brickin it about going out and thinking of places to avoid.
My stomach turns when I think about it as I know he's acting all no-bother about it. I know he is probably feeling bad too but what advice would you give me?
If i saw him it would ruin my whole night and would make me not want to go back to the same place
One of the gay scene's problems is that with it being so much smaller than the straight scene, the chance of running into people you'd rather not is a lot higher.
Perhaps with how you're feeling at the moment it would be best if you didn't venture onto the gay scene for a while and wait till you feel more secure again. Breakups are difficult but time is the best and in many cases the only healer.
Perhaps though you have built up the issue too much in your own head over these last two months. When you do see your ex again, although it will hurt, at least then you won't have to fret so much about the possiblity of it happening. Don't let one individual have so much power over you.