:( My feet are really cold, even with socks on... It's all so unfair.. On another note...Let's talk about unrequited love... Who else is loving someone from afar and thinking that certain someone is lovely but knowing it's pretty unlikely anything will happen... I love jayde..Who's unfortunately taken.. I also love Steve, who is also taken... It's all queens court's fault.. It needs to stop letting these lovesome people in... I didn't even go there with steve until I discovered he swung both ways..and then the fancyingness began... Oh dear.. Anyone else got such trivial dramas that tug at the heart strings and are just a pain in the bum? I think I'm going to have a nice hot shower to warm up my tootsies... Dave have you turned off the heating again? Hope everyone's had a nice weekend.. Love em.xx
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There is a guy at the mo who I like, and I know doesn't like me. Well coz I asked him. Its really weird coz usually a 'No' is enough to make me stop liking them, but every time I see this particular person, I realise how much I like him still... :(
Its cold in my house too. But i'm not allowed to turn the heating on. And I have run out of socks.
luv john xx
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My girlfriend dumped me a few weeks ago. Not only am I still completely and utterly in love with her, but I foolishly bought tickets to see her in California before we broke up. Grr. And the one person I had my eye on here? Not interested. Unrequited love. Such a lovely thing. :(
Yippy skippyness! Replies to my thread... I am now currently in the Parkinson cluster and it's ridiculously hot and unairy in here... Suffocation alert...oh well, at least it's not summer! My John K, I too had run out of socks...but that is no more as I did a big fat wash yesterday, ah ha!! Love/lust though really can be an annoying thing... I often wish emotions were something I could just turn off when they weren't making me feel good. Sorry about your girlfriend Alice. Hope things feel a bit more positive soon. John K, you know how fabulous and wonderful I think you are so the person you're talking about is obviously not good enough for you. Richard hope your joints are ok and Adam good luck to you... Glad that Alberto is happy enough at the mo... (it's all that Judy Garland he's been playing)
Relationships as a whole worry me a bit...Went to an all girl boarding school (all good but I was straight at the time) and then came onto the gay scene and it took 6 months before I suspected I might be bi, although I've begun to realise I should have noticed alot earlier..2 years later and I finally decided yes to that one.. But I've only kissed about 11 people in my entire life and had no actual relationshipy type thing, so I just worry I won't know what to do with myself.. All the people I've got to really like are people who I didn't really think of in that way to start off with, but then their personality has made them more attractive. So here's to finding someone who can be a good companion more than anything..and can make me laugh. And who I can just sit with and not say anything and it's not awkward..(and other corny things like that) Hope everyone finds someone lovely soon... In the meantime, friends are pretty damn good! Raise your glasses to that..I only have a bottle of vittel however so that will have to do. Have a good day/week everyone, love Emily.xx
P.S. Anyone going to coffee hour? Jacket potato with tuna and cheese methinks.. P.P.S. Anyone going to queens tonight?..I've been moved off th cloak room back to glass collecting/money on the door...Unfortunate really, I was enjoying the lack of need for much movement about the place! P.P.P.S Dave, one word!!!.... SLLLLIIIIIIIIIIIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
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Actually, scrap the coming to queens court...It's that new night at Life tonight isn't?!...Well you can all bog off there (in the nicest possible way!)... Then I won't have as much work, yay!... I love it when it's dead at queens... It doesn't get as hot and sweaty and I don't have to queue behind people to get anywhere.. And less people to be rude as well. It's all good... So go on then, off you go...Admit your love for Life bar and Dan from Big Brother and take the rest of QC with you.xx
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ah, i completely agree with all of the above ^^. there is someone who i really fancy back home, he's such a lovely person and HOT!! but obviously, (and doesnt this happen to all of us?) he's straight. im not out to my friends and i dont kno if he'll take the happy news too well, which im quite worried bout cos he's such a good friend. its enough to be with him knowing nothings going to happen than to tell him and lose our friendship.
theres someone out there for everyone, its just a matter of time. fate will find itself eventually.
well thats enough wallowing in self-pity and the like
love all, xx
p.s. i'll be at coffee hr, xx p.s. omg i completelty 4got dan from bb was going lol, got choir and a LOT of work and a 9 start 2moz tho :( its ALL good, xx
Hey I got told 2 reply to this thread so I thought I wud... sorry u all got a few probs wi ppl u want but can't have n Alice am sorry 2 hear bout u n the gf, hope things work out better 4 all of u. I've got a few issues in me love life 2, me lass has quite abit of "baggage" which makes things difficult 2 say the least, tryin 2b understandin but its wearin me down abit. xxx
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quote: Originally posted by: Phil "ah, i completely agree with all of the above ^^. there is someone who i really fancy back home, he's such a lovely person and HOT!! but obviously, (and doesnt this happen to all of us?) he's straight. im not out to my friends and i dont kno if he'll take the happy news too well, which im quite worried bout cos he's such a good friend. its enough to be with him knowing nothings going to happen than to tell him and lose our friendship. "
Ah! You're Phil who goes to choir! I'm so dense sometimes (and completely bad with names, too). Sorry to hear about your dilemma -- been there with one of my friends. Not fun at all. What eventually got her out of my mind out was meeting someone else.
And sorry about your girlfriend, Nic. Not sure what kind of problems you mean, but having had a bit of baggage myself in the past, having someone understanding around is one of the best things you could ask for. I'm sure she's incredibly grateful, even if she doesn't always show it.
There's someone out there for all of us, and this is coming from cynical old me. I'm going to drink coffee before I whine about my love life anymore.
Its stuff 2 do wi problems she had ages ago, but she dunt trust people 2 much & wont let any1 get close or she pushes em away. Its kinda like we r takin 1 step forward n 2 back
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it's nice and warm here now. i think someone's been secretly turning the heating up...
the sky was pretty this evening. did anyone see it over the university at around 4 o'clock when orange clouds started to build up, then they turned pink and it slowly got dark while everything had a surreal orange tinge to it? lovely and cosy
i think we need an unofficial weekend coffee hour where we can go into town one morning and drink coffee somewhere slightly more relaxed than meeting room 5! not to knock coffee hour-- there's a time and a place for everything!
gosh, that was an all-over-the-place post x
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Dave: That wasn't the sunset - it was light pollution. Sorry.
And hugs to everyone here who's had their share of lost loves and unrequited loves (I've had a couple myself, and some of you know how crap I am with relationships).
Special Hugs to Emily (don't anyone else take it the wrong way, she's just one of my best friends), Luv you and I know you'd make an amazing girlfriend one day, you have so much to offer x x x
Awww, we are all being nice to each other and I know all of you are lovely and will find the perfect person one day! Until then, lets all have some fun!
Dave, your such a romantic with your skies. Bless. I don't know who turned your heating on but when I came round before it was lovely and warm. Its still cold in my house. I'd turn it on but everyone would find out because the pipes make a noise similar to that made by Les and Cilla's bath off of corrie. Not good.
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I think a saturday coffee trip would be cool. Or even a roast din-dins trip. yum. Queens Court on Sunday anyone? (Buy 2 roasters for 8 quid I think). Be a nice way to round off the week.
lots of love
Johhhnnnk xx
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lol sounds like a plan but can i just warn u all that i really cant cook so sunday dinner at my house cud result in food poisonin, so its eat at ya own risk...
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To anyone who came into queens last night, sorry if i was moody.. It was not the most fabulous night ever I have to say. Hope everyone who was out had fun though. I gather Life was booming.
Sunday roast....mmmmmm... Roast potatoes and stuffing and meat and gravy..mmmm... Have fun all those going to the grudge tonight. xx
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Well we could all muck in, buy something different each and have a nice sunday dinner. will be madness, its carpets, its madness, carpet madness, its madness, carpet madness, madnes carpets, madness now!
John K zzz
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Our hall attempts to cook a roast each Sunday, but the resulting mess is so bland that the idea of going elsewhere appeals. A lot.
I could attempt to cook for people. I make excellent roast potatoes. However, our kitchen has four stools and is the size of a stamp, so it's not the best of ideas.
hehehehe theres learning & theres creating a huge disaster... am just startin 2 master doin pasta, sunday dinner is waayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy 2 advanced. Sorry 4 ****in myself laughin all the way thru The Grudge, I found it hilarious tho, the start was ok but the story line was crazy but the little girl/boy thing looked n walked so dodgy i cudnt help but laugh. The missin tampon bit was pretty rank. Scariest thing was Sarah Michelle Gellar survivin 4 2 hours xxx
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Off the topic of sellotaped kids etc...At the moment on the Weds SATC reruns Carrie is with Aiden...Does anyone else think he is totally fabulous and gorgeous and she should so have stayed with him...?...
Here's a questions...Which of the men any of the girls have gone out with would you have done?... And for anyone else who wouldn't go there, which of the girls would you have gone for?..
I'd say Aiden and Berger from the blokes side, and Miranda and Samantha for the girls..
Saw Bridget Jones today... The story line about the other woman who Bridget gets jealous of is changed from the book and turns out to be a lesbian.. She is bee-yoo-tiful!!... and Nick, Keira is so lovely as well!.... She and Andrew Lincoln were my totty for Love, Actually...xx
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lol, satc rules. yes to aiden no to mr big. there was one guy samantha went out with in one episode i think he was a cop or somet, i just remember they used handcuffs, lol, he was FINE. sjp is nice but chorlotte is nicer ;) love all xx
Well not exactly unrequited love, but you'll get my meaning. Here's the song I am listening to at the moment which sums up what I'm feeling at the moment. Adam will like this one:
Sheryl Crow It's So Easy
All I want to know Is when you go Do you think of me? Cause I could let you go But there'd be a whole Where my heart used to be
C: It's so easy holding you near I could melt in your arms, and disappear Loving you baby is breaking my heart tonight Its so easy but it isn't right
I saw you today You walked away And I couldn't breathe Cause I know how it will feel It's a love so real When you're touching me
C
Everynight I lay here alone After you leave me and go home He doesn't know, that we cant let go And its hurting me so
C
Baby its so easy....
jk x
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Nice lyrics that.... What's everyone's favourite lovey type song?... Do they even have one?.. I know I'd be hard pushed to choose one...In particular there's so many good oldies out there e.g. Love lifts us up, Nothing's gonna stop us - Starship, Always - Atlantic Starr, Somewhere out there...loads... If I was going to pick one that's been out recently, I'd have to say Daniel Bedingfield - If you're not the one..I think that's a beautiful song.
Why's it so cold outside?...Why?!... And there isn't even any snow!. John K....You are fabulous!xxx
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There's been no preciptation and clear skies all day, hence no snow. Some preciptation could fall tonight or tomorrow morning, but it'll probably be sleet or rain as it's getting milder. (Thankfully, as I've lost my gloves.)
Who says a geography degree isn't useful for something?
Its freezing. I'm going to buy a stupid hat to wear with ear flaps and stuff.
Great choice of song John :) although would rather hear you quoting something more cheerful (though still by Sheryl Crow of course) like Soak up the Sun maybe.
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I successfully managed to leave the house for work last night with one glove.. Went to look in my bag upon reaching bus stop to discover the unfortunate mishap.. But I had my scarf so that's something... At this present moment my toes are not feeling their best.. I told Dave to get me a hot foot spa this instant but he didn't.. So selfish!! Adam, that hat sounds like a damn good idea!.. I had on 6 layers to and from work last night - t-shirt, work shirt, jumper, hoody jacket, fleece, and big puffy waterproof coat..And I still felt that piercing winter chill! Woe is me.
Dave, winter is pretty... But only when it's snowy or a picture postcard frosty winter morning...Not when it's just cold and rainy just to upset me!... I reckon it should snow and then we could have an lgbt sledging outing! Fabulous!xx
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Why, when you really like someone, do they hurt you and make you feel sick with pain. That feeling when all you want to do is cry but can't. That ache in the centre of your chest.
Joni Mitchell Case of You
Just before our love got lost you said, "I am as constant as a northern star." And I said, "Constantly in the darkness Where's that at? If you want me I'll be in the bar. " On the back of a cartoon coaster In the blue TV screen light I drew a map of Canada Oh Canada With your face sketched on it twice Oh, you are in my blood like holy wine You taste so bitter and so sweet Oh I could drink a case of you, darling And I would still be on my feet I would still be on my feet. Oh I am a lonely painter I live in a box of paints I'm frightened by the devil And I'm drawn to those ones that ain't afraid I remember that time you told me, you said, "Love is touching souls" Well surely you touched mine 'Cause part of you pours out of me In these lines from time to time Oh, you're in my blood like holy wine You taste so bitter and so sweet Oh I could drink a case of you, darling And I would still be on my feet I would still be on my feet
I met a woman She had a mouth like yours She knew your life She knew your devils and your deeds And she said, "Go to him, stay with him if you can But be prepared to bleed" But you are in my blood You're my holy wine You taste so bitter and so sweet Oh, I could drink a case of you, darling And I would still be on my feet I would still be on my feet
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This has fast become the depression topic. I had a crappy night too John, as it turns out not all people are nice like I got taught as a kid, some people are ****s. So as a distraction from doing my work I will post song lyrics as well. However to sum up my night I cant decide between Sheryl Crow - My Favourite Mistake, Tori Amos - Crucify and that Kellis song that goes I hate you so much right now.. whatever thats called. That 1 has a dedication.
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Yeah but even pullin dunt make things all better, theres always gonna b sum bastard u want n can't have, head****ers n other random bitches 2 make ur life a misery in one way or another. Nat's majorly ****ed me off, I can handle break ups n stuff but when she starts draggin our mates in2 it n gettin them to cancel their plans wi me 2 spend time wi her despite the fact that she can c them whenever the **** she wants n I can't, it drives me mad. She's still on bout comin up on Tuesday n stayin til Thursday n all, do some people just not get it that u dont wanna c them for abit?
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Well I have finished it with the guy who inspired me to write those songs. Seems I was one of many people in leeds he used whilst away from his 'boyfriend'.
I feel a song coming on....
john x
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