This just popped into my head, at this 02:27 of the bloody morning, trying to sleep...
I am not a woman, but I'm also not a man; I have a male body, but that isn't who I am. I have a serpent's tongue, though I wear a lion's head; if you want a price, then pay me twice - I'm worth my weight in lead.
- Sasha Ward
Maybe a few more stanzas to follow. Enjoy.
xx
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14th street and flying delirious confused and breaking not reeling but spinning certainly head over heels in the snow
It was to be such a meeting, coffee and chat, beginnings, new year new hangover new man
And the ball has dropped (he waits in Starbucks, mere streets away, downs his espresso, curses inconstancy and never loves).
Dimples in the bonnet, snapped limbs. A heart-shaped blood halo. An involuntary smile
and the last wordless breath pushed skywards, the crowd gathering, a cloud obscuring the sun. No sirens, no. No sirens.
A Housewife Finally Gets A Quiet Moment To Herself In The Kitchen
and the radio makes that noise when the batteries go and I
click it on and off
and say to myself I don’t get it I don’t get it why oh why but the noise doesn’t help it just sounds like a pathetic echo and nobody’s telling me what to think anymore, I think I’m falling apart.
This smile that I don Won't mean what he thinks This hand that I share Doesn't mean what he wants
I'm too much in a pain That's why I smile Because there's nothing else to do I can't let go of this hand Because I would feel colder if I do
I want to forget But I don't want to forget In a world where you don't belong anymore What can I do but to brave further And further away from you Getting lost in this picture of perfection?
I suppose I should keep this poem hidden until someone offers to publish my writings, but since that might not happen in the near future, I'm going to post it. I wrote it after the arts and crafts session at my house (you can recognise the glitter there). I do apologise if the poems sounds too personal, but since I've not posted anything remotely interesting in the forums in ages, at least I wanted to share a bit of my writing with you all.
A can of beer filled with cold tea is your ashtray tonight.
The buzz of a computer sends you to a small cell of splendour.
The lightbulb overwhelms you with the caress of a dead tongue.
Glitter on your hands stick to your throat possessing the sticky heart of stupidity.
Where's all the mellow gone? Where's the smell of candour?
Down the tap somewhere swallowed by hungry moths and bitter ends of fags.
Tomorrow the colour of your jeans will fade like the sting of lime juice washed by sweet oily soap.
The skin in your fingertips shrugs in loneliness, dipping and edging the air between your fingers.
Gone is the small talk, forever wishing to grow into something - you don't know what yet.
You look away, ashamed of your own sight and the flowing melt of things.
Unhappiness never reads with subtlety the smiles on your twitching mouth.
Unhappiness thinks tomorrow you shall wake and stare at the blues with big eyes.
Unhappiness doesn't know of the whispers of your emptiness and your sour cream.
Ice-cream doesn't melt any more but insists on becoming milk again.
It wants the freedom of a fly to go back to the smell of farms and feel the wet grass where it was born -
but the cake's been already baked, eaten and digested, maybe even thrown up in a back alley followed by fugitive paparazzis.
There's no way back to the plot of land - the pastures are frozen in midwinter.
Spring pushes its way through the maze but all it finds is the dead body of a child:
your shattered corpse eaten by moths and flies, thrown away by the grandfather clock who said: "Not yet. It's too early."
Now the worms laugh at your rotten jaw and eat your smiles with onion gravy.
Your mind flickers and dances and loses itself in the leaves of nothing.
The forest is too thick for your smoke.
You burn alone in a beer can.
The glitter on your hands melts the ice-cream.
Unhappiness thinks you should get a life but you only want to caress one certain neck,
to press your nose against loving skin, to follow eyes with your eyes and find love among the brambles.
Unhappiness wants you to forget. How childish of her! She doesn't know
that it's too early, that no matter how much you want the clock to teel you it's time,
deep in your own and little jungle you only see him - and him - and him.
-- Edited by AlbyFC at 00:28, 2005-03-13
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'I've discovered the secret of life. A lot of hard work, a lot of sense of humor, a lot of joy and a whole lot of tra la la.' Kay Thompson
Alby, I love your poetry. In fact, between you, Sam, Thai Dave and Sash, we have quite a few poets in our society. Maybe we could put a zine together, or something? In any case, I am too embarrassed to post poetry (though I write shedloads of it) or even post my name as the person who this is directed to is most likely going to read it.
Anyway. Dear unrequited crush. I'm sorry I turn into a babbling idiot and stare at the ground every time I talk to you, and I'm even more sorry I turn up to certain LGBT events hoping you will be there. It's worth it just to see you smile, and if I get a glazed look on my face, it's only because I'm imagining doing things to you that this forum would censor.
Anyway, object of my affections. I know you'll recognise who I am, so please reject me soon. Being in lust is very out of character for a cynical girl like me, plus, I ming.
And thanks to you too, Lovestruck in LS6. Won't you consider posting unanonymously and also let us read some of your poetry? Neither your words nor your feelings should make you feel embarrassed in any way, I think.
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'I've discovered the secret of life. A lot of hard work, a lot of sense of humor, a lot of joy and a whole lot of tra la la.' Kay Thompson
When you're fast asleep they prance around your room and wink at each other over you.
They reach out with their lips and tickle your nose and give you little sneezes.
In the early morning they leave through your skylight and melt with the clouds and when you wake up you can smell their sweet breath.
The elephants have watched over you and left stardust in every corner.
Their best present is a small kiss on your warm forehead, the gift of heavy angels with tiny feather wings who dance proud of their weight, waiting to come back to you when you can't see them - when you need a comforting caress.
Life is full of elephants brushing against your carpet, tiptoeing from dream to dream, opening your doors with careful feet -
no-one is ever so delicate.
But you'll never see these elephants. They people a land beyond your reach, where life smells of coconut milk and love hides behind a palm tree.
-- Edited by AlbyFC at 02:19, 2005-03-13
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'I've discovered the secret of life. A lot of hard work, a lot of sense of humor, a lot of joy and a whole lot of tra la la.' Kay Thompson
still wrecked this mornin, have jus read all the poems stoned n managed 2 trip myself out! the poems r ace! u've all got talent! & LoveStruck, darling u got writin talent luv so dun b afraid of showin it, M'wah!
BAPS!!!!
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Contact me at - lgbt.assembly@leeds.ac.uk / nicturner_85@hotmail.com
Hi. I'm the guy that wrote the poem that was posted on March 10th. Here's an another one. I don't think it is that good but 'nyway:
My token made out of sacrifice Burn it onto the wind Make it prevail in this relam And let it be the flower of passion he likes Amulet made out of me Not for me but I hold it Charm it so he will wear it
What kind of practice is What should I attribut to? This symptom of piercing flesh
I've already checked my fortune sent From somewhere mysterious yet I belong But I go back for more
Strings of words Connected together Pours out of the vessel To reach the guy who is imaginary
Violent Heat Marks the path I burn to lead Secret spell that I've cast I will emit light in this dark forest If he will be there
Vows made in secret Armour blessed in unbearable spirit darkness of intensity, marked with zeal I will embark to it willingly For I need to give it to him
It's nothing to do with love. But there's such a ****load of poems around this thread I thought I'd chuck it in here just for kicks.
Reaping the Harvest I think Grandma wants to be a pilgrim. She says to me "Son, them corn-flakes Is from in a fact'ry, not a farm" "But Grandma," I say, "They taste like fields and sunshine."
Grandma, she tells me, "Ain't no dignity in the production line." But she's too young to really know Of when fields were more than export goods. I read about it. People died. Were buried at crossroads under the corn.
And people asked, and still ask: How fertile was the ground beneath the golden grain? And could a nation really rise From the dessicated corpses of foreigners?
okay, all of these have been really deep!! heres my little contribution, im no english student, so forgive me!!!
As I wait for you To arrive I think of what to say But I know you won’t notice Or care It’s just another day
You can’t tell or know What I feel Locked away in my eyes It’s enough to see you smile Or laugh Under this disguise
And I find myself Wishing there was something more I could say As your world passes me by I laugh and smile and try To save myself from falling It’s just another day
I know you don’t feel What I do And you can’t tell it hurts As I hide, veiled beneath This smile It’s just getting worse
I know I’m wasting My time And I hope you’ll understand But I know you won’t notice Or care If I held your hand
Now I find myself Wishing there was something more I could say As your world passes me by I laugh and smile and try To save myself from falling It’s just another day
Hey I'm pretty shy which is why I am posting this as anon. Let me know what you think
In the past, I thought friendship was built to last Our friendship was fine, Then we crossed a certain line And everything I lost, You gained at my cost
You took my friends and left me out Trapping me in a world where no-one can hear me shout
Now when you depart, Something inside tears up my heart
I try to treat it as a joke, but now my laughter is beginning to choke
You were my best friend, but we met a better end
You've left my life in woe, and all I can do is drown in sorrow I thought what we had was magic, but its turned out tragic
I can feel the despair, Anon, but why don't you try doing away with the rhyme? I don't know why, but "magic" and "tragic" strikes an odd funny note. :os
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I'd wrote it years ago and never really showed anyone because I am really critical of my work and like to keep personal things personal. Seeing everyone elses contributions inspired me to put this forward. Thanks for the feedback
quote: Originally posted by: AlbyFC "I can feel the despair, Anon, but why don't you try doing away with the rhyme? I don't know why, but "magic" and "tragic" strikes an odd funny note. :os "
I think the rhyme gives it a really musical edge. It would be cool put to music.
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The only freedom that you’ll ever really know
Is written in books from long ago
I don't want to know what you'll do with your chunky kit kat, Adam!
To get back on topic, love sucks. There is nothing good about something that causes so much pain and frustration, and inspires so many awful pop songs. The realisation that you're in love with someone who has known you for far too long to see you in that way and is horribly, horribly oblivious to your feelings is not a nice one.
It's ok, honey. I don't even think pop songs are inspired by real love. They're all conventional stuff. I'm a bit sceptical about love at the moment too! Moral support and huggles!
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'I've discovered the secret of life. A lot of hard work, a lot of sense of humor, a lot of joy and a whole lot of tra la la.' Kay Thompson
Brilliant poetry everybody! It's nice to have a slice of beauty going on in the forum.
I've come to the conclusion it's better to live in celibacy than love, cos the risk of having your heart torn out, stomped on, and put back in the wrong place is just a weeeeee bit too much.
Viva la celibacy!
me xx
p.s.(can ya TELL i've given up? lol)
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quote: Originally posted by: NickyDyke85 "no u dont u aint seen me in action :oP "
i feel an lgbt sesh of mutual-opt-in-opt-out cam fun is on the way. you don;t have to look at what you don't want to, if you have pr0nband and can view many cams n all that; you pr0nbanners have the choice! have the choice. have the choice? have the choice! we should have stand-by fluffers and stand-by poosie chasers (just in case) and for non-boff-related entertainment.
spread the love and not he poosies is what i say
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burn down our home, RAPE OUR DEAD MOUTHS. Just as long as I don't have to hear anymore of your disgusting babble
I donft know when But I stopped struggling And let this body be left in the mercy of nature Naturally, my flesh that lost its meaning long time ago Appeared on to the surface with ease Being pushed up and up by the vast ocean Soul being burned by the callous sun Eyes which doesnft emit gleam anymore Simply displayed what was passing by
Taken by flood, I soon landed on the shore The moist sand crept through I took a look around on the beach in witch I have arrived People that Ifve never seen before were everywhere Yet it felt empty The sand that has attached itself made me feel colder
A creature dressed in shambles Crawled its way towards me gDonft trust what they say,h My Consciousness told me gThey will lie.h I found a shell with sharp edges And threw it at them
I wondered by the beach My soaked clothes betraying My effort to keep myself warm
I then found a wonderer I felt warmth from him Venturing nearer to him Our eyes met I smiled wryly
gHi.h gHi.h gWhat are you doing?h gIfm looking for a legendary land.h My Consciousness tried to stop me, but didnft win at the end. gCan I join?h gSure.h
We travelled miles The foreign land seemed so mystical Yet small and frail Under the sky that was showering with stars The learned wonderer told me That he was looking for a promised land
The wonderer smiled at me I, who didnft have anything Knew what to do I smiled, and then light emitted to the sky My flesh has gained its meaning again
The learned wanderer Held me And I felt so much warmth
-- Edited by indie_hunk at 15:28, 2005-04-04
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I've got a sweet poison cake, gonnabe high Take me higher higher I've got a sweet creature song, It's a lemon, lemon lemon & I scream
Looking for love He knew that his heart was healing He'd been hurt too much to try again But when she caught his eye Ain't no man could fight the feeling He knew he had to try to let love in
Smile to let her know She was in the mood for talking So then he began to play the game Before he knew it He had told her how much he'd been hurting How he was hoping she was not the same
Could you be The kind of lady that I'm seeking? After all of this time Could this be true love? And she said, Boy you don't have to look no more I'll give the love you need 'til you holler enough, guaranteed Not like the rest, boy, I'm a kind lady You've been hurt but be sure boy I am the cure And when you wake up late thinking it's a dream Just touch me boy you know, you can count on me Believe me
Baby This lady You know what you've found in me Is a lady Kind o'lady That can give you what you need Baby A kind lady That will never leave you lonely and Just maybe This lady Finally you've found me, oh Kind lady